Somewhere in the Msia
Somewhere in the Sarawak
Somewhere in the Miri
Somewhere in a area
Somewhere, somewhere my heart is not with me
As I’m trying to hide, hiding behind the feeling...
Since when, that feeling rose. I don't like it, it makes me unhappy.
Lately, I am moody in days, hours, anywhere, anytime. I just can’t be cheer up.
*Last night*
Under the ceiling stars, with the music of Mother Nature, i heard the insects and river flowing, i smell the air, i felt cool, i saw stars...
Everything in my sight, nothing is moving.
Since when, i started thinking, thinking of "impossible".
Since when, i "emo". The feeling was gross!
*Thinking the way to start writing*
Well, actually, the feeling started just because of only a girl.
Her name is Park Shin Hye.
She moved me, touched me deep inside me...How could her?!!
She is an angel who mesmerized... really..
She is alluring, beautiful, gorgeous, adorable, loving, so caring... radiance with pure light
She is an actor, singer, and a very big superstar, somewhere in the Korea.
How could i am trying to share and post this weird expression, this is not exactly my style!!!
How could i... i... like her?
Okay, I know its sound stupid.
Ya, i thought too, how can I... I... I... fall? in love with a SUPERSTAR??? Who has millions of fans!!!
And i am sure the readers start laughing that how childish am I. Sad case.
But i just can’t... can’t... stopping? for liking her? WTF!!
I have to say it out, I have to write it down, maybe i will feel better... : (
I wanna stop that... that feeling...
hahaha... idiot me... seriously...
I searched her official site, official fan site, in everywhere...
I searched her movies
I searched her dramas
I searched her songs
I searched her MV
I searched her pictures
Even, her recent activities
And I have wasted days just because of her
Is it worth to do that?
She is the second person who I loved deeply
I knew I am just a boy, a small character
Even hardly to reach a chance to be with her
I have thought too much, I knew that
I told myself that it’s impossible, and I should forget her or just be her little admirer, tiny admirer
Everything, every person, every person, every movement, any sound in the surroundings, any feeling, every second, time move, earth moves.
Guess what is she doing now?
How do I know?
Hope do I know. Haha, idiot me…
Haiz..hope I can care of her, protect her, or be with her.
And again, I talked nonsense, I said “impossible”.
Love a person is hard.
Especially if she is the one who is… unreachable one
Time move, I should not wasting my time… on her, it’s impossible
And yet, soon, or when I grown up, I will tell myself that this passage is written by me and I will not feel shameful and stupid.
Because,
This is my life, the experiences I have gone through is my experience, other people will not understand it, perhaps?
But still,
I as a little admirer, will always support you,
Park Shin Hye : )
